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He says “close your eyes, sometimes it helps.” |
I miss the crazy intense feeling you get when you first meet someone/start a relationship. The butterflies. Gosh, I miss the butterflies the most.
How do you know when it’s time to let go of something you’ve worked so hard on? Better yet, how to you start over?
I wish I wasn’t sitting here thinking this. It’s horrible that I’ve been with someone for 3 years and our relationship is so dull, tedious. Even a burden at times. Love should be simple, seriously.
I wish he would just understand. Understand that I am only one person. I can only do SO MUCH. I wake up, go to work, come home, cook dinner, clean the house, go to sleep, over and over and over, every.single.day. I do this for him, I do this for us.
I am not happy, but I keep going. My patience is running so thin and I feel like I’m about to break.
His life is so easy. He sleeps in till whenever he wants. Almost never goes to class. Spends 98% of his time on the computer and still finds shit to fight with me about.
I need to get myself together and decide what I want. Not just in my relationship, MY LIFE.
3 Responses to "He says “close your eyes, sometimes it helps.”"
Wow, Amber.
I literally typed up an entry based on the exact situation.
I know so well what you’re going through. Like me, you sacrifice everything for the relationship, while he just sits and enjoys the ride. Your relationship is NOT equal, because you put in so much more. It isn’t fair.
You’re still so young and I don’t want you looking back on these years and regretting them. I think it is time to let Jeremy go. There is a REASON you feel this way.
I myself am considering the above.
By the way, the title of this entry is perfect. Russian Roulette fits exactly how I’ve been feeling.
And although love is tough at times, you shouldn’t be the only one that makes the sacrifices.
Posted by Erica on February 09, 2010 @ 7:10 PM UTC
he needs to pull his weight and not rely on you to do everything.